56 – I hate/love dairy…

1 08 2010

So – I wish I could eat dairy! I really love it. Saw a commercial for yogurt today. Almost started salivating. So creamy, smooth and refreshing. Well, yesterday, I had some cheese and sour cream. I ate a burrito at a not very good restaurant – I only went because I wanted to be sociable and get to know people better. Well, my body and mind paid for it all night! Bloating, gas, irritability. But the worst part – I get so damned emotional. My mind just goes into emotional hyperdrive. I am super-sensitive to everything, will cry at the drop of a hat, and blow everything out of proportion. Especially about myself. I start feeling like a failure, like I am no good at anything, and that I am just reverting back to how I used to live. I tell myself I’m fat, ugly and worthless.

I think I need to stop eating dairy completely. Why do I love it so much when it treats me so badly. I’m like one of those people in an abusive relationship, that just doesn’t want to give it up – who just doesn’t know when it’s time to walk away. This is one abusive relationship that I am going to walk away from! I am sure there will be occasions when our love affair flares up again, but it will be momentary – like a moth to a flame, and poof… it’s dead!

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13 08 2010
Rissa Ree

“I am sure there will be occasions when our love affair flares up again, but it will be momentary – like a moth to a flame, and poof… it’s dead!”
Love this part! I am going to start looking at dairy as the moth flying near the candle from now on too 🙂 THanks for that!

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